Its been 4 months....

4 months ago today, Grandma died.  Its been hard and easy at the same time.  When she first died and the weeks leading up to it, I had such faith and a strong sense of security in knowing that she would be with Grandpa, with my Dad and Jesus.  But over time as each day has passed, the selfish part of it all has hit me.  I miss her, I want her here.  I'm so happy that her body is whole and she is no longer in pain.  She was an amazing woman and I hope I can be half the person she was.  I really miss her and have felt the void of her more and more lately.  I broke down a week or so ago and just cried for a few days.  I'm not much of a crier usually, so it was hard to just be depressed and sad.  I try to keep my outlook bright, hopeful and look forward to the future.  But a part of me misses that Grandma who taught me how to cook, how to sew and how to have compassion.  I made waffles today and thought of her.  I saw flowers and thought of her.  I suppose every day is going to be like this for awhile.  120 days and counting of life without her.  We'll keep going on, but my heart aches for her.  I love you Grandma.  

Goals! I have goals!

I have a goal. That goal is to be better about blogging. I will be better about taking some time out and actually describe our family and our day to day life. My Grandma passed away 2 weeks ago. Its been hard and her loss is really starting to sink in for me. I will post some pictures of her soon, I'm trying to put together a collage of her life and I can't wait to share that. Aubrey will be 4 years old soon and we are planning a big Disney Princess party. This child asks me everyday if its her birthday yet? She's so much fun. Laura is almost finished with her sophomore year of high school, I'm so very proud of her and of the heart she has. Philip is going through the process to legally adopt her now, I'm very excited for her. OKAY!!! So, more details soon, and more blogs as well. Love to you all.....

I'm soooo guilty

Alright, so here sits this blog. It hasn't been touched for almost a year. What is keeping me so busy that I can't update this? I mean, life gets away from me sometimes. Working, being a mom, a wife and a not so good friend. Being consumed with health issues and other things. Our family is doing alright on this end. Laura is 14 years old now (WOW) and Aubrey is a few weeks away from turning 3! Here are a few pictures from Halloween, Laura's birthday and a few misc.

Zoo!

Uncle Richard and Aunt Sissy came back to visit in April and we all went to the San Diego Zoo! Enjoy these pictures, I'll upload video sometime!

Disneyland

On February 19th, Uncle Richard came to visit and we went to Disneyland together! It was a great day for all of us. Here are a few pictures from that day, I mainly have video so only a few pictures to share!

Random photos

To my blog stalkers....you know who you are! Here are a few pictures for you.....

Laura dressed up and ready to go visit her father's family on Christmas Eve. She is growing up and looking more like a little lady every day :)


Our little Aubrey. Just a sweet genuine smile :)

Philip, a hiding Aubrey and Charlie. The first day that Philip met his father.

Tae Kwan Do

Laura has been taking Tae Kwan Do classes and here she is working on her kicks!