Its been 4 months....

4 months ago today, Grandma died.  Its been hard and easy at the same time.  When she first died and the weeks leading up to it, I had such faith and a strong sense of security in knowing that she would be with Grandpa, with my Dad and Jesus.  But over time as each day has passed, the selfish part of it all has hit me.  I miss her, I want her here.  I'm so happy that her body is whole and she is no longer in pain.  She was an amazing woman and I hope I can be half the person she was.  I really miss her and have felt the void of her more and more lately.  I broke down a week or so ago and just cried for a few days.  I'm not much of a crier usually, so it was hard to just be depressed and sad.  I try to keep my outlook bright, hopeful and look forward to the future.  But a part of me misses that Grandma who taught me how to cook, how to sew and how to have compassion.  I made waffles today and thought of her.  I saw flowers and thought of her.  I suppose every day is going to be like this for awhile.  120 days and counting of life without her.  We'll keep going on, but my heart aches for her.  I love you Grandma.  

Goals! I have goals!

I have a goal. That goal is to be better about blogging. I will be better about taking some time out and actually describe our family and our day to day life. My Grandma passed away 2 weeks ago. Its been hard and her loss is really starting to sink in for me. I will post some pictures of her soon, I'm trying to put together a collage of her life and I can't wait to share that. Aubrey will be 4 years old soon and we are planning a big Disney Princess party. This child asks me everyday if its her birthday yet? She's so much fun. Laura is almost finished with her sophomore year of high school, I'm so very proud of her and of the heart she has. Philip is going through the process to legally adopt her now, I'm very excited for her. OKAY!!! So, more details soon, and more blogs as well. Love to you all.....

I'm soooo guilty

Alright, so here sits this blog. It hasn't been touched for almost a year. What is keeping me so busy that I can't update this? I mean, life gets away from me sometimes. Working, being a mom, a wife and a not so good friend. Being consumed with health issues and other things. Our family is doing alright on this end. Laura is 14 years old now (WOW) and Aubrey is a few weeks away from turning 3! Here are a few pictures from Halloween, Laura's birthday and a few misc.

Zoo!

Uncle Richard and Aunt Sissy came back to visit in April and we all went to the San Diego Zoo! Enjoy these pictures, I'll upload video sometime!

Disneyland

On February 19th, Uncle Richard came to visit and we went to Disneyland together! It was a great day for all of us. Here are a few pictures from that day, I mainly have video so only a few pictures to share!

Random photos

To my blog stalkers....you know who you are! Here are a few pictures for you.....

Laura dressed up and ready to go visit her father's family on Christmas Eve. She is growing up and looking more like a little lady every day :)


Our little Aubrey. Just a sweet genuine smile :)

Philip, a hiding Aubrey and Charlie. The first day that Philip met his father.

Tae Kwan Do

Laura has been taking Tae Kwan Do classes and here she is working on her kicks!

Fair

We took Aubrey to the Southern California Fair in Perris. She looked around at the rides, rode her first horse and looked at animals. What more could a kid want?


Looking at the colorful lights

Having fun!

Aubrey and Uncle Pat looking at Turkeys

Aubrey riding a horse

Not too sure what to think



Aubrey on her first horsie ride!

Beach videos

Aubrey making a sand castle with Daddy and Uncle Richard




Playing in the ocean with Uncle Richard!

Aubrey's 1st time at the beach!

In October after Laura's birthday, Uncle Richard, Philip, Aubrey and I went to Huntington Beach and stayed at the Hyatt. It was a gorgeous hotel with direct beach access. We took Aubrey out on the beach and she had a blast. We explored and found some great pools perfect for little ones. Here are a few pictures. I hope we can go back and visit again soon.
Aubrey and Uncle Richard

Aubrey looking at the shovel....hmmm what can I do with this? My Uncle Richard! Aubs digging in the sand My husband Beautiful baby loves the beach! I love this Mommy! Uncle Richard, Lisa, Philip and Aubrey Beach baby Uncle Richard building a sand castle Aubrey helping Uncle Richard, Aubrey and Daddy in the kiddie pool Cold, but loving the water I think I'm done for the day guys Content baby!

Cruise to Mexico

Here are the pictures from our cruise to Mexico. We left on September 21st and came home on September 26th. Nanna and I got sick while on the cruise on the second day, but we had a great time. We went to Cabo San Lucas and Ensenada. I can't wait to go on another cruise!!

Seal towel animal - day 1 Elephant towel animal - day 2

Lion towel animal - day 3

Sting ray towel animal - day 4 heart towel - day 5 Philip on the first day of the cruise, drink time! Popi getting into the cruise spirit! Nanna getting ready for some fun! Me, very happy to be there! Tendering in to Cabo San Lucas Philip and Popi at Cabo Wabo Philip at Cabo Wabo Our beautiful home on the seas, the Carnival Elation Popi on the tender going back to the ship Philip going back to the ship Philip and I after the formal dinner Off the ship in Ensenada, it was very foggy The formidable Mexico flag Popi, Nanna, Lisa and Philip before getting back on the ship in Ensenada. What a wonderful time we had!!